Saturday, June 28, 2003

Well it's been a tiresome past few days. Too many difficult choices.. so little time.. my brain feels like mush. Thanks to everyone who put up with me.. I really appriciate it. I know I am the most indecesive person on this earth :( I don't deal well with change and have been cheating myself from experiencing lots of new things because of it.

That's all going to change.. be prepared for a more confident, positive, brave and happier Jane :) We only live once.. I don't want to go through life taking the easy road. Who knows what tomorrow brings.. I want to challange myself.. make goals and achieve them. We all have to come to grips with the fact that someday we won't be here.. and I want to experience all I can before my time is up. Why not go all out and try something new... what's the worst that could happen..

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
--Robert Frost

I am hoping my choice has made all the difference.

P.S Thanks for all your support Charles, you make me stronger, love you lots :)

	Scribbled by ♥Jane♥

Friday, June 27, 2003

So.. Nursing it is.

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Thursday, June 26, 2003

I am having a breakdown.. Ok... So for the past week I was glad that I had finally made a descision on what I was planning on taking in september.. as of approximately 2 hours ago..it's thrown out the window. I was planning on taking a Vet Assistant course they just got at Compu college. For the past year I have been deciding between Nutrition, Nursing, Vet.. I can't be an actual vet becuse I don't have SUPER high marks.. My marks were awesome in high school.. but I threw it all away after I decided to major in Biology and I partied almost every night. So after a year and a half at UPEI.. I took time off. So now I am back to Nursing. It scares me. I want to do it.. but I am afraid of failing. I heard it's really really hard, but in the end it would be worth it.. I have talked to so many people.. I just don't know anymore.

I keep asking myself.. could I even do it?? I know I have the capasity to learn.. but would I apply myself??

I don't want to take a course just because it's quick and easy.. I want to be financially secure.. I want to travel and see the world.. I want to be able to provide for my kids and buy my dog clothes :P All those things cost money..

I need advice.. boo.. Great day for the shout outs to be not working.

I have to decide tonight.. I have an appointment to apply to compu college at 8:30am tomorrow.. the seats are getting snapped up very quickly..And the Human resource lady (Anna) said If I don't go.. I won't get in.

It's going to be a long night of thinking.. I wish I knew what to do.

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Last night was great. X-men 2 was action packed.. I loved it. However, Daredevil was one of the cheesiest movies I have ever seen. Hahah. Halfway through the movie I had a breakdown and wanted to leave because it was that stupid. The nacho's and cheese were great though.. so I can't complain.

I work at 12-8 today, I hate this shift. It sucks. I cant go out after because I work at 8am the next morning. Ugh .. I remember the good ol' days when I was a drunk and would stumble into Mc'dees at 4:30am after a night of partying to start my open.. being a manager was great.. but I wouldn't go back there. Ever.

Anywho I have to eat, I am going to have a pic nic on my deck. Chow

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Wednesday, June 25, 2003

Went to the Ch'town Rural Grad last night, Jordan did an awesome job as valedictorian, It was the best Grad speech I have heard yet :) Congrats to everyone that graduated !! I also went to my Neice Taylor's kindergarten Grad.. All the kids sang songs it was adorable.. I took lots of Pics.. I am like the crazy mother.. I know I am only her Aunt, but I love her like she's my own :) I had a bad headache by the end though.. all those kids.. yeesh.. I don't know how day care workers do it.. Too much for me. It was cute though.. the kids had to say what they wanted to be when they grew up and Tay said "An Artist", she always draws me pictures and I always tell her how great she is at it.. aww.. I teared up..I remember when she was just born and I was so mad at my sister for having a kid at such a young age.. but She's the best thing that ever happened to me, and I can't imagine my life without her.

Now it's off to eat and then to the beach, then to the drive-in's tonight !! Yayy

	Scribbled by ♥Jane♥